i'm going home tonight..!!

yes..and i'll meet my aunt and cousins.. i know the situation won't be the same as it used to be -depressing, full of sadness, awkward, all must be mentally and physically worn-out..but i have to gather my strengths and set up a new starting line.. i'll endure the sadness..i won't pile anymore sadness on them..they have had enough..

on the other side,hopefully by the time i get home and turn on my lappy, there won't be any sad and heartbreaking news..i fear it might be.. :(

today they claimed whether or not he will return , the decision is totally his.. i hope there's no continuation to this statement..as days,months or weeks after there'll be a headline reads 'Jay's decided to terminate the contract and choose his own path' ..too much drama and twisted facts..i know he's not a defeatist so do his other six dongsaeng..

it's not the end, it's only the end if we stop fighting!!

gasp! it's 7.18 pm already..i'm off to take a shower...'goodbye' <--- yoo jae suk's voice..lol